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As someone who struggles a lot with anxiety, I was so scared of trying hero league, but I just managed to finish my placement matches!

I mean, I didn’t do amazingly, and placed Silver 5, but to me it was more the fact that I conquered something that I have been staring down. (Because while I was shit scared of playing HL, my mind was still like “C’mon you gotta do this”).

I was literally that anxious that during the first draft I was physically shaking. My logical brain knows that it’s stupid to do that, but my anxious brain just likes to melt into a heap of gurgling confusion.

There was of course, some toxicity, but overall it went well. I used a draft tool website to help me with my picks since coming from QP meant I didn’t have much draft experience. I had to flex away from my preferred heroes somewhat, but that added to the fun.

So for all of you in the same boat as me, who feel like you’re in a tug of war between anxiety (or anything else) and having fun, just dip your toe in, the water’s fine! (Albeit a bit salty sometimes).

Edit: I just wanted to mention, for all those saying “it’s a bloody game”. That yes, I know. That doesn’t mean that dealing with my anxiety over it wasn’t a big deal, and it also doesn’t mean like I’m trying to say any of this was completely life changing.

Edit2: if anyone likeminded wants to play sometime, feel free to whisper me for the battle tag (EU). I won’t post it here in case of trolls. ;)

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